The Chosen One

Forgive the cheesy title. 

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I sometimes feel like I am enclosed on a force field that is why they (read: THOSECLUELESSCREATURES) cannot ever go near me. I feel that to them, I am, well, not invisible but invincible. I feel like just when they’re about to go an inch closer to me, they would hear a deep, protective voice saying, “Oops not that one. Anyone but not that one. Now scram!” And so one minute they’re very visible in my radar and I’d be all like, SHET HE MUST BE IT OH MY GAAAA THIS IS IT. But the next thing I know, they’re gone. Gone without an explanation. Gone and leaving me clueless and helpless and so friggin disappointed yet again. 

It’s difficult, I tell you. Like somehow I am The Chosen One we usually encounter in an action-adventure movie. Like somehow I have no choice but to go through all those unnecessary conflicts and fight with the ninja skills I never knew I had otherwise I would meet my own doom. It just sucks that I can’t just be the sidekick who has the option of not having anything to do with the story at all (but is only silly for going with The Chosen One on an adventure anyway).

Or hey, why can’t I just be the irrelevant normal girl from The Chosen One’s small town or something who was so irrelevant she was even forgotten in the credits but it doesn’t matter cause while The Chosen One tries to fly like a ninja, this irrelevant normal girl gets to pick up love in the right place at the right time with the right person?

Story of my life since forever.

But just like every other chosen ones, I know there is a reason why out of many girls out there, it had to be me. I wasn’t randomly chosen. I was predestined to encounter these things and feel this way. I may be struggling right now, continually saving myself from, well, insanity, I am assured that good will come out of this. One day I will look back at everything I went through and feel lucky that I was the one chosen to have these experiences.

But right now if I could think of one good thing coming out of my situation, it’s the fact that I have come to value love. More than anyone I know (I’d like to think). You know what they say: people come to value the most that one thing they have waited so long for. And so as far as I’m concerned it’s safe to say that I am the girl who has the most love to give. And since I’ve already gotten this far, the more I am guarding myself. The more I would have to make careful choices.

I won’t let yet another mistake rob me off of what I have. I am now saving myself for one who can get past the force field. The one specifically given orders to get near The Chosen One trapped inside the powerful bubble.  

So until the right one comes along, I will not be normal. Just someone worthy to be called The Chosen One. Hahaha.